What drives me!

Honesty, when I think of I think of inspiration I think of Beyonce, Michelle Obama, Mariah Carey, Will Smith, just to name a few .... these people in different ways are what I aim to be. I am one of those people who deeply wants to make a difference by doing something significant in life. I wake up each morning, with my goals in front of me, it is what I think of throughout the day, it is what keeps me late at night, and also keeps me going on even when I feel like giving -up
Passion, hard work, and determination is the key to success in life. I am somebody who will like to be a positive role model to other people, especially young girls in the way I act, talk, treat people, the way I will raise my kids, and the kind of wife I will become. Nothing more is as exciting, and thrilling for me in life, than being a light in a world that is becoming corrupt and evil each day. This is why I decided to go on a career path that will help me reach people and speak to their hearts and encourage them to be the best they can be. My number one quality in somebody that I will spend the rest of my life with, is someone who is driven, and passionate about life and have love for what they do. Probably you may be reading this and thinking this girl is perfect and I just love her, but you know what I am only human, I make mistakes, say the wrong things, sometimes scared of change but I believe this is the reason why Christ came into this world. He came so you and I can live to our full potential, Jesus came and died so we can all be free from feeling guilty, condemmed, and also free from insecurity. This is the reason why I can share this now, because I am a product of what it looks like when Christ comes into your life and the impact his presence can make in you. Even though I have been through hard places, and experienced failure, faced disappointments, struggled with insecurity, I can say with confidence that I am blessed. I am blessed because I know how to be a blessing to others. The true joy in living, comes by helping others. I believe relationships are very important in life because life is all about relationships.
I hope that as you read this, that you will be inspired, and encouraged, and also know that you are special and beautiful just the way you are.

Finding my purpose in life

Relationships and the people that I have met along the way have played huge role for me knowing what my purpose is. I am defined, by the things that I do in life on a daily basis. For example, things like being a student, a daughter, a friend, best friend, sister, worker, has helped shaped me. And the way that I connect with people is my values, and beliefs, like everyone is special, and should be treated honor and respect, you work hard for what you want in life to get what you want, and even if you don't get what you deserve, you keep working hard, you live everyday like it could be your last, and you stick to your words even when it hurts. I have had, wonderful times with friends and family, but the one thing I learned the most from is from my failures, my hurts,, and the times when I felt misunderstood. When I minister to people from my pain, that's when I know that I fulfilling my purpose. When I take the time to listen to someone who is feeling insecure, encourage them to embrace their uniqueness, I feel a level of peace. When I give a smile here, and encouraging word there, I know that I am making a difference. We all going through something, I don't care who you are, what age, your income, background, education or lack of it, we are all struggling and we need each other. I care a lot about people especially people who are hurting. Because of some of the experiences I've had, I'm able to relate with people on a deeper level.. God cares about broken people, people who cannot stand on their own, people who feel weak, and inadequate. He wants to wrap his arms around them and show them love like they have never known before. To find your purpose in life, you have to dig deep and find the things that excites you, something that flows naturally, something significant that if it becomes your life you are making a positive impact, and contributing to making this world a better place. Sure you have to work hard, and be persistent in what you do, but it is not a constant struggle, you don't feel discontent inside instead you are enthusiastic. Each of us has something that is unique, special, that we can contribute. Each of us is packed with incredible potential, don't allow disappointment's, failures, cause you to give up on your dreams. instead listen to that still small voice inside you, that tells you who you are and what you were created to be. Some of us give up too easily, we tried and we fail, so we stop dreaming, and we become easily satisfied as a result we live below our potential. Be a dreamer, wake up each day with knowing your purpose, be passionate about your dreams, and do things that Will make those dreams come alive. Friends life is too short to wait till the end and discover you didn't really live.

Free at last!

One of my biggest struggle in life is dealing with fear and insecurity. I was afraid of failing, fear of rejection, and sometimes fear of everything. Each time I want to try something new, it was always fear, raising its ugly head and stopping me. The reason am able to share this now, is that I grew tired of being afraid, and I began to face my fear one by one. The truth is when anyone faces what they fear, they become fearless. I also struggled with the way I looked, acted, and the way I talked. I was very insecure at some point in my life. One thing I realize now, is that most women struggle with some 0f this things that I mentioned. Partly because we're very emotional, and we tend to be more nuturing and caring. It is not easy to be a fearless strong woman in this day and age. We women struggle with a lot, for example, we worry about our looks, our image, our weight, if we are doing enough for the people in our life, how to balance work ,kids, managing home, you name it. And I'm one of those women who worry if I'm doing enough, working hard, and able to balance life, so at the end of the day I don't feel defleted or guilty.
I'm naturally a giving person, who likes to go out of my way to make someone else feel special, and to feel loved. I'm constantly thinking of ways I can reach people and speak to their hearts, because this is the way I connect with people. This need I believe to please people came from my own pain of just needing somebody attention and love. There was at time in my late teens, when I felt completely alone, and confused about the direction my life was going. And I would wake up most mornings feeling like I was failing. Was something wrong with me, I'd ask, not knowing what the answer to that was. Why do I feel completely empty inside I wondered, why can't I be good as that other person. This was a constant struggle for me. Then I turned into writing, and music because that was my way of expressing the deep pain I felt inside, which words alone could not describe. I understand now, that my confidence doesn't come from my looks, my personality, my education, my job, it comes from God. Because this things I mentioned are subject to change. The first step to being free for me, was acknowleging how weak and fragile I 'm apart from God, and how much I need him. Now I look back and I'm amazed, how far God has brought me through. I feel like I 've grew a lot and learned so many things about life, and myself. Now I feel more confident about who I'm and where I'm going. I hope that as people read this, they feel a change taking place in their hearts, and that they believe that each of us is special and unique just the way we're.And also we can be products of our pasts, but we don't have to be prisoners of it.